( I'm actually not sorry it took so long for me to begin doing my thang again as my life is kinda shit not too shit of course but kinda just a little shitty you know? )
As I looked down at my arm, shuddering and barely able to breathe, I heard a groan beside me. I turned to see the effeminate man with crimson hair coughing. With a smile, he said, "A real shame this one had to be disposed of. Its personal reality, along with its illusions, is truly terrifying. Though, it was probably doing this subconsciously, being a newborn and all~☆"
Not even caring about the corpse of the baby in front of him, he grinned wider. "Congratulations, fellow sinner! Welcome aboard NexGen, the company of tomorrow! Now that you've survived your first—well, technically zeroth—outing, you may know my name. I am Elysia Freyja. However, when we are in the company, you may call me Andros Sigri~☆"
Looking at that sunny smile all I could think was 'How?, how can- such, such.... a bastard exists uncaring for the death of an infant and treating it as- as if it's just another day at the office and it shouldn't be thought of as much else but that's a human life.
The label of mutant be damned I just killed a fucking baby an innocent soul who could have lived a full life if it wasn't for me they could have they... could have lived and yet why just why this makes no sense I want to vomit I want to vomit I want need vomit sense sense sense none just no not single.
I want to vomit I feel sick I feel sick I need to vomit I feel sick... it burns what is this what burns I want to vomit I feel sick vomit I need to vomit I feel sick is this vomit need to vomit I feel sick dead?, am I dead what is dead?, I want to vomit.
That smile that smile that smile that smile that smile I- it's sick I want to vomit it's disgusting I want to vomit it deserves to die I want to vomit die, die, die, die, die, die, die just due why won't it stop why fear is this?, no.... I need to die' Nathaniel couldn't think of anything else but dying, death and disgust to the ''human'' being with flowing crimson hair Infront of him.
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'I feel nothing' He stopped he no longer was able to feel anything at all towards anything and as that feeling washed over him he blankly stared at everything wondering why he felt so numb that the exact time the redhead stopped smiling and opened their cherry red lips ''That it why we are called sinners your expericaning it aren't you?'' Not knowing what they were talking about he could only stare at them.
This for some reason gave them a smile as they said ''Us sinners have no right to feel for either death or life that is simply the punishment bestowed upon us by the gods, now you might be wondering why haven't I always felt this way simple you killed that mutant and touched the {Other} thing or rather part of this world☆''
'Wha-' ''What am I talking about it's simple the nothing we feel from killing and the reverse form of emotional distress you see the shackles that bind us curse us into being sinners in other words we are the inverse of are ''pure'' side that is ''untainted☆''
Staring at the effeminate man with crimson hair that was as red as blood he... he- couldn't think about what to do as he felt nothing... nothing at all he was just ''hollow'' like a shell of his former self however after a while he couldn't help but say ''I don't want to be like this anymore... I dislike?, this feeling of being hollow how do I feel please tell me I can't handle this feeling?''
''Oh well the answer to that question is simple you just need to inverse your original sin by taking on the sin of the one who awakened your original sin though you might get side effects one being transforming into another gender and taking the backseat in ''your'' own body though cases such as that are rare as sinners usually don't take on the sins of gods~☆''
Staring into Andros Sigri gleaming red eyes that seemed to be crafted from the finest ruby along with the fairest tanzanite Nathaniel asked in a dull nearly emotionless voice ''And how exactly does that work?'' Andros developed a smug smile on their face as they responded ''It's very simple really since i've seen you counting before i'm assuming you know math so you should know the fact that two opiates make a positive well it's works in much the same way but a little different.
You see your sin can be seen as both a positive and negative as in your sin is positive for every other mutant and negative for your cause of original sin therefore you can only resonate with your cause to have and effect get it?
Anyway you might be wondering what would happen if you tried to resonate with other origins of sin well you go insane worst case and die best case do you get the jist of it now my fellow employe/sinner?~☆'' After listening to Andros's short but somehow long explanation Nathaniel responded to them by saying.
''I didn't ask for all of that I just want to know how to use my well let's say apple of Eden to resonate and work for me so I can stop being in this... well state.'' Andros eyes widened at that before they laughed at said in a more lacks tone than usual ''Ahh I see that's what you wanted to know that is really simple to answer once we get back to base with that babies corps of course we will mush it up bones and all compact it through the waste produced by are energy generator then it will take the form of an organ and or a object that will be implanted into you or in the objects case your blood or seman will be used to bond with it~☆''
Nathaniel nodded at that then shortly after he flung as much blood as he could off of his arm before giving up and walking to their ''super fun giga van'' as Andros would call it.
'Hmm he seems different than even me when I gained sin it seems more like I don't know he is both corrupted and non corrupted by the curse of the mother goddess and the original dragon of sin'