Mingzè Sheng Tao
As I waited for her to calm down she gradually began to open up. I know she definitely knows why I am here.
Then she looked down and began to speak "I regret coming here!" I didn't say anything but kissed her tears.
If I cannot remove her pain, at least I can kiss her tears away.
Just as she continued to tell me about her parents, I knew her heartbreak,s, but all I want is for her to rest and forget.
I looked at her and how her mind was disturbed.
I kissed her lips and then began to kiss her harder trying hard to stop her from thinking about her parents.
She is definitely not a kid, but every parent thinks their kids are yet to mature.
I hugged her and stood there for hours as I could feel her sleeping peacefully.
Then I placed her on the bed carefully when I felt the sky was dull. Then I got up and cleaned her room.
Then I sat on the chair before the window and began to scroll through the message. We had to be present for the press conference.
Everyone will be having a conference, including the tiny girl, and this made me feel proud, but then something echoed.
"My point is Ivy and you, you both belong to different worlds. She is a girl who builds characters, and we are those people who act on it.
We get so professional that even if we are being real people will think it's a fake."
Lu Chen's words, and then I looked at her and began to talk to myself.
"What are you doing to me?
I don't understand I smiled at my own reflection
What am I?
All I know someone who is a hopeless romantic behind a girl
I wish you think about me the way I do and I hope we might figure it out someday"
Just then I stopped myself and got up wearing my clothes. Then I saw the dirty plates of the morning breakfast so I called the room service.
As they knocked it, I quietly opened it and allowed them to tip-toe inside slowly because I didn't want them to disturb her sleep.
Just then, they stepped in and began to gather the plates lying on the floor and clean them.
They left, and then I gave them tips so that they wouldn't say anything even if they did, this could violate the hotel privacy rules.
Just as they got out, I made sure everything was cleaned, so I quickly took a step out slowly, but I felt something was missing, so I rushed in to kiss her forehead.
If I will go with her lips I am sure I will take it long and disturb her sleep. I took a deep breath and then walked out.
Just as I stepped out, I felt a different kind of loneliness, but I had to bear it because I hadn't recognised my pure intentions, but I still could not figure it out.
I love to spend my time with her but I am scared to lose her still I cannot accept the feeling of being loved
I could feel something stopping me, but at the same time, I wanted to overcome this fear.
I am trapped and unable to accept my desires; I don't know what language my heart is speaking to me because, around her, I am a nerd who wants to study every inch of her body.
What gets me that my foolish heart wants to stay under her shadow and I am much more happy to surrender myself.
But why am I doing it?
The question triggered me.