It was quiet and the breeze was cool, walking along the beautiful lawn alone, Debbie sighed, she needed some time alone, some time to think, and she couldn't do that with Marvelous and Ami teasing her about him, about the guy that broke her fragile heart.. she needed some time to know what she wanted now, some quiet time alone, she held her breath for a while taking in all the air she could get, she needed it, to relax her mind and think straight,to worry about nothing else than her not so perfect life,but it wasn't going to happen, because he was right there, few steps away, his back turned to her, he seemed to be lost in his thoughts too
It wasn't a perfect time to see him again, she turned back immediately to walk away silently
"Running?"
His masculine voice stopped her abruptly
"Uhn?" Me?.. I"..
Jezz.. it wasn't the perfect time to stammer
She could have just stayed with the girls, it was far more better than being here with him again
" Yes, are u running away from me"
He was already coming closer to her, he wasn't in his texudo now, just a T shirt that gave away the body beneath, her eyes were fixed on his chest, she drew her breath, closed her eyes and opened them again to focus on his face
"Why?" She muttered "why do u think I'll run away from you"
He looked at her, she was vividly freaking out, her fingers folded, and her eyes pale
" Because u hate me, that's why!"
He moved closer,"because you don't want to see me and u don't know how to avoid me, I know I am the last person u want to see" he wasn't lying but it wasn't the entire truth, if only he knew how she was holding back from running into his hands, from forgiving him again and again and let nothing else matter
"I don't hate you" she moved back a little,
She moved back a little, "but I don't want to have u in my space"
He moved closer,too close,she could feel his warm breath on her skin,"you've never known what u wanted right from time"
She felt the word hit her,and watched his eyes burn into hers
"I was going to make it work,but you..." He held his hands high in the air to signify" you just weren't sure if you loved me"
He was pained, but men don't show pain, he wasn't a weakling, yes, she had to believe he wasn't,
She just had to forgive and let him in,
"I'm sorry," he said again
Was he going to do this now,?
Was he going to talk about it here?
What exactly was he doing
"I did,....I was just scared" she turned her back to his face,so he wouldn't see her struggle not to cry,she wasn't going to,not now
"I tried, what could I do",He could hear her breath heavily,she was a strong lady and he knew it,but she still needed his strength.
" after everything that happened, after all this years, this feeling is still resurfacing, but I know it wouldn't ever work out, I've said so many things to hurt you because I was broken, and all you always do or say is sorry??"her voice light and sane time harsh
He moved closer, but he couldn't touch her,he was scared of how she might react to his touch, although that same touch had once melted her and made her feel loved.
"And I am sorry,I'm sorry over and over again"
"Yes, you should be" she turned back to look at him, it wasn't just tears and pain now but anger in her eyes
He was still standing really close to her, he's eyes didn't show any emotions, and she couldn't tell if he was truly sorry or not, if he had loved her the way she did truly or not, if she was foolish right from time
"That night was the best night of my life, and I haven't been with anyone else since then"
She saw his eyes widened with surprised, and watched him stepped even closer
" What do u mean, " he asked in the most gentle voice ever" you've never had any other man touch, after me?"
He was staring like he was going to eat her up any moment from now
"Yes, that's what I mean" she smiled, a part of her happy to know she had finally gotten the chance to tell him that, how was she going to ever love anyone else
" well"
she sighed, trying to ease the tension that was already filling the atmosphere
" how's the party going to be, it's a reunion of all our childhood friends"
YãRó blinked, still registering what she had just said earlier" uhm! Yh, yh, "
He was short of reasonable words to say,as he watched every move she took.
She turned around, and began heading back through the path she had come through
"Catch you later"
"Uhm, yh, "