I didn't want to come to the rink.
Too many kids. Too many memories. Too many ghosts skating under fluorescent lights like they hadn't grown up.
But Kaden had insisted. Said we all needed a break. Said I'd been "brooding like a Victorian widower," whatever the hell that meant.
So I came.
And for a while, it was fine. Laughter, music, some dumb arcade competition. Just enough noise to keep my head busy.
Until I saw her.
At first, I wasn't even sure it was real.
She was skating slowly, tucked between some guy and another couple. Her hair was longer now, wavy and half-tied back. She wore a soft blue hoodie, sleeves too long, her fingers barely poking out — same as always. Her legs moved confidently, fluid across the rink, and I caught flashes of pale skin between the hem of her hoodie and denim shorts.
But it wasn't just her body that stopped me.
It was her smile.
Wide, unguarded, tilted up at the guy skating beside her. He said something, and she laughed — loud, open, no hesitation. That laugh used to be mine. That light in her eyes. That gentle, knowing tilt of her head.
I felt it like a punch.
She was with someone else.
Not clinging. Not faking it. Just… happy.
He skated close, hand brushing hers. She didn't pull away.
And damn if that didn't mess me up.
Because all this time, I'd convinced myself that what we had — what almost was — had faded out clean. That she'd forget. Move on. That I could tell myself leaving was the right thing, and mean it.
But there she was.
Eighteen now. A woman.
Not the wide-eyed, quiet girl who used to sit on the stairs listening to me and Kaden talk like our words mattered more than they did. Not the girl who asked if she could kiss me in the dark when she thought I was bleeding out from more than just bruises.
She had grown into herself.
And I—
I hadn't been ready for that.
She caught me watching.
And instead of looking away, she held my gaze.
Bold. Steady. Like she knew exactly who she was and didn't need my permission anymore.
And then that guy — her guy — skated over and took her hand.
I swallowed the heat crawling up my throat.
Not jealousy.
Something uglier.
Regret.
The kind that seeps into your bones and sets up camp.
Because I'd left to protect her. To let her live a life untouched by the mess I carried. I told myself she'd be better off if I stayed gone.
But I never expected her to look right through me like that.
Not with hate.
Not with longing.
Just… with distance.
Like I was someone she used to know.
And now I wasn't sure what was worse — that she moved on.
Or that she had to.