After the abortion I was well and ok as if nothing happened but I was regretting losing my child I had nothing to do because it was the best decision for me .
after months we were together then something happened again which left me devastated and swore never to be with him again.
After some months I saw changes in him that late calls chat and whenever I complained it's either am inconsiderate or am selfish I started having mixed feelings about everything happening, I cried and prayed I over come this problem about to befall me.
it was in a rainy day we had an arguement and we didn't talk for over a week I was worried and decided to check up on him on chatting him up he asked. e not to chat him up again j was confused and dumbfounded, I decided to asked him why he told me he has gotten another woman he loves so dearly and she gives him happiness I never did
those words felt like an iron pierced through my skull , tears started streaming down my face, I have never imagined those words from him mouth , I cried for days, whenever i remembered what we shared I cried and ask God for answers and solutions, I only loved him and want him bt it was clear he doesn't want me, I decided to break the news to my friends and sister they told me I was warned but never listened to their advice of letting him go
i regretted knowing him and having something to do with him this was the time i needed him most but he dumped me for another I was the woman who carried his child for months risked my life on line when getting an abortion, I cried and wanted the world to end i wanted the ground to open and swallowed me all along, I called him to apologize whatever wrong I did I can't leave without him o cried for days months I couldn't eat or sleep well, I saw hell
I was broken by someone I trusted with all my life my body my soul and my whole someone who shows me red flags and I still chooses to stay someone who was my happiness and confronter he broke me apart he caused me pains he made me a laughingstock before every eyes he made me hate men, he made a monster to my self ,
I was so pained and heart broken, my friends and sister supported me and gave me reasons to let go of him,
it was hard and hurtful but am pleased to know that my heart aches less now I only want to delete all the memories of him from my head. his smile his touch ,his words and everything.
I only regretted more than I felt and it was bad for me.
I started losing weight was looking so unkept and sadness written all over my face I was pained .
after my exams I went back home my parents where so say to see me that way I was questioned about my health and what was happening,I couldn't say a word but cried I have lost someone dear to me .
how do I leave knowing he is with someone else, how do I leave knowing he's getting married to another woman
the woman he told me not to get worked up on how do I leave !!
my mom did a great job after listening she advised I stop regretting and move on the best would come , he will showed me love and care and still will not want to think if hurting me or my feelings, she confronted me and I cried in her arms I let the tears and pains out and i felt relieved and ok.
i started leaving my life working out going on an adventure , sightseeing with my friends and family there were all there to support me and calm me .
I was so happy to have such wonderful and loved ones in my life they made me see and talk know what life is worth living for, my friends supported me all the way making sure I wasn't in a deep thinking state or depressed.
but as they say time heals gradually, sometimes i do cry sometimes I don't sometimes I told my self I am too good for him and I believe something bigger is coming my way soon and with that I started leaving my life with no regret but love .
I love my self now more than anything I want to keep me happy and proud I want to see me succeed and have him see my success and how bright my future was.
I only want to work on my own interests and not someone else
I want to see that I get to where i was supposed to be with out the help of another person, i want to see me grow bigger and healthier than before,
I let go of all grude and trust my future to be better than before, I don't get my self worked up about another person's interests or life .
I owned my self after my parents
exactly three months he texted me and the memories of us started flashing back again the moments I never want to remember, the times I want to let go and move on .
it comes back hunting me ,I was so scared and shivering when I saw the tests I was speechless and dumbfounded I really don't want to have anything to with him anymore
I want to let go of the pass but seems it's back to hunt me down.
Ignored the texts and focus on my daily activities bt can't seems to get my mind off him , what could be the problem, and who will help me go out if it
I can't seems to think straight again I called my sister to let her know she advised I ignored and get my mind off hill and the texts who will help me now
what could possibly go wrong
where did I go wrong in this relationship!!! I asked my self looking at the phone and wondering why I can't seem to let go of the past which broke me into pieces .
the past that almost claimed my life I never want to be in that situation every again .
I must let go and focus on my self and my own growth
that's will be the best thing to do I want to move on but it seems he's back again !!!!!!!!!!!